Too short?

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“Here, take this leaflet, maybe you want to apply to be a model!” a girl said, as she handed me a piece of glossy paper with the words “casting” on them. Below the attractive title, “requirements: over 1,72 cm” was written in bold white letters. Now, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I’m definitely not tall (although a lot of people in my Instagram comments seem to think I am).

 I looked at her, then at my feet, then back at her. With my platform boots I easily towered over the girl, but, in reality,  I was (still am) only 1,63 cm, which clearly disqualified me from the start. I thanked her and walked away, happy that I’ve been approached in the first place and sad that my genetics had robbed me of a chance to become the next Cara Delevingne (haha, right).

 

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This was a year or so ago, and I still think about it sometimes. I was so sure back then that my height will stop me from doing anything related to fashion blogging, and I wasn’t aware that there are hundreds of popular bloggers who aren’t tall, yet still manage to rock every outfit. I’m more than fine with it now, and I’m embracing my average height. I’m not even that short!

Of course, there are downsides to being 5’4. There are downsides to anything, really. The rips in my jeans barely reach my knee (as you can see in these pictures) and all my pants are a bit too long, but it’s nothing too dramatic that can’t be fixed. Whenever I do want to appear taller, I go for the nude heels which make my legs look longer and fitted clothing combo, but this doesn’t happen too often.

 

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For now, I’ll stick to my beloved platform shoes and jeans that don’t quite fit me right, and who knows? I’ve heard people say that you can still grow in your twenties.

Fingers crossed that’ll happen. xx

 

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Crop top: Bershka

Denim shirt: Pullandbear

Jeans: Pullandbear

Shoes: Sammydress

Sunglasses: H&M

Choker: H&M

Socks: Pullandbear

Go for it

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This is my first blog post. I don’t know how many people will read it, I don’t know if any of you will notice the weird garbage in the background of the photos (now that I’ve said it, probably all of you, but seriously, I didn’t even notice it until I looked at the pictures… oops) and frankly, I’m a bit scared.

  • I’m scared that people will think that my photos are bad.
  • I’m scared that I’ll get comments saying that my outfits suck.
  • I’m scared that I won’t get any comments at all.

Maybe these are all childish fears, or maybe they’re fears that everyone has and nobody writes about, but they are real. For the longest time, I let these negative thoughts consume me, I let them stop me from doing what I really love, and this is not okay. It doesn’t matter if people won’t like my blog. It doesn’t matter if I won’t have hundreds of thousands of followers on Instagram and if I won’t appear on the next cover of Elle. What matters is that, at last, after a year of wishing and hoping that I’ll magically become a fashion blogger without actually blogging about fashion, I’m finally doing it.

I’m scared, but I don’t really care. I’m doing something I’ve dreamed of doing for years, and no fear will stop me from achieving my goals. Sure, I am afraid, but I am also so, so excited for what’s to come, and I am willing to accept and get over my fears for this.

And yes, it took me a year to realize that I won’t get anywhere if I don’t start. Yes, it took me 12 months to gather enough courage to type these words, but I’m happier than ever. I’ve proved to myself that if I want something, I can get it and it is only a matter of motivation and not waiting for things to come your way.

Think about it right now. Is there something you wish for? Is there anything you’re dreaming of? If the answer is yes, forget about the “but”s. Start working towards your goal right now, write down the steps you need to make in order to succeed and go for it! Truly and passionately go for it, and nothing will stop you!

Me? I’m doing the same thing. xx2012-10-22 19.39.55

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poza resized

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       Vest/ Kimono: LC Waikiki

   Crocheted Top: Dresslink

               Shorts: Bershka

                Shoes: Bershka

                  Necklace : Pullandbear